December 24, 2008
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Yesterday
It was eight years ago yesterday that I answered Bianca's spam invitation to Xanga. Blogging was new, not yet part of pop culture, not yet infested. Those of us who were part of that first wave of newcomers probably didn't know what to expect. How could we? As far as we knew nothing like this had been done before. We didn't know there was going to be an age ceiling put on the world we began to shape and mold day after day. Many of today's bloggers here in xangadu were still going wee in their pants. Were still learning their communication skills from badly translated Japanese video games that boldly proclaimed, All your base are belong to us! They hadn't yet found their inner critic that would soon begin to swagger and whine about people too old for blogging cluttering up their world with their foreign language of spelling and English grammar. No, we adults were moaning about eProps and who had how many and who had how many subscribers and how that made them more popular and therefore more important than the rest of us. Though we had stopped going wee in our pants physically we made up for it with pouting, name calling, finger pointing and other forms of juvenile behaviors we'd all just as soon forget.The sprouts of friendships started back then have grown into trees that have given us shelter from the storms of life when we needed them. Now, whether we keep up here in xangadu or not, we are part of each other's lives and we still amuse, amaze and comfort one another with eMails, eCards and eLove. For the most part we're probably way beyond annoying one another any more. Some of the people who made up the first, second and third waves of bloggers who hit the beaches of xangadu tapping loudly on their keyboards have fallen and are no longer with us. For those of us who remain in the shadows the saying again proves true: Old soldiers never die they just fade away. Though these days I rarely cross T's with the inhabitants of xangadu from time to time I remember. It may appear to be a complaint but I have none to air. I am grateful for the practice I got writing here every day for years. Learning the ropes of hidden human relationships and how people behave toward one another when they are safe and anonymous behind a monitor was also interesting. It can bring out both our angels and demons. There are far more demons than angels I've learned. That just makes the angels all more exceptional and cherished.
To those of you who have persevered I'd like to say thank you for everything. The good, the bad and the ugly. To those who have left xangadu for other parts, farewell. To those who have left these muddy shores of earth and rock for whatever lies beyond this mortal experience I wonder if you have regrets about some of the really mean and stupid things you said and did when you were here. For the rest of us I hope we make amends for the really mean and stupid things we said and did while we went crashing through life. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
Comments (29)
I've found xanga to be a great learning experience in many ways as well. I don't regret a minute of the time I've spent here. It's been a pleasure to read you every time I've had the opportunity whether I've commented or not.
Merry Christmas.
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The many faces/personalities that can inhabit one site have amazed me since day one here. Of course, some of that is because several people are IN those sites, posting as one person...which makes it even more difficult to deal with than the usual.
I for one appreciate you and all you've said over the years. I'm glad you're my friend.
Merry Christmas!!
i'm glad you've stuck around, and i miss your words when you're not posting (though i understand of course). Xanga has been good to me...i've made some really great friendships and i've grown even closer to my Mom who has 2 blogs here.
...i was just looking through old xmas cards and found one from a deceased xangan, lkhend, you knew her didn't you? the world is small here.
may merriment be yours this holiday season
Happy Xangaversary James. I like you and wish you all the best. You are inspiring and grumpy and funny and dear. Thank you for being my xanga pal! Merry Merry Holly Jolly! Cassi
@Southland -
Yes, I remember her. She was a minor fan for a short time but developed some questions concerning my authenticity. Another story . . . *smile* Thank you, Molly. Have a wonderful season.
Merry Christmas, James...
Merry Christmas to you too, James. I rarely comment but I always read and ponder...thank you.
Merry Christmas to you and your family. I have learned much from your writing. Thank you as always for sharing. Many hugs, Sassy. P.S.: I am reading A New Earth
congratulation eight years ! your are my first impression of zanga when I satrted seven years ago...time is fast..and I'm lucky to know wonderful xanga friends include of you...
Not sure how long I've hung around. Been fortunate enough not to have any mean things tossed my way. That is probably because few visit my corner.
As for me saying something stupid, bet I've done that a few times.
@queenie -
Grumpy eh? Well, I suppose you're right. As you so graciously point out it's not so bad when taken with the other three. It's been great knowing you over the years, Cassi. Thanks for hanging in there all this time.
I miss your writings James, as you know you have had a profound effect on my life and being. I am most appreciative. Have a happy and healthy New Year!
The Brits like to say "Happy Christmas". The Yanks like to say "Merry Christmas". May the Midwinter Solstice celebration you prefer be wonderful.
Oh, and not only do I remember Bianca and her fictional travels, I still have the same computer I had then, still running the same crappy operating system but with a relatively new set of viral infections. I even still use that outdated computer, almost daily, but I do my writing on a Mac Mini I've had for a few years now, long enough that I'm wishing for a new Netbook like the rosy red Asus 1000H. Perhaps, though, I'll resist the lure of a new toy I can't afford (I've never been able to afford new machines but that hasn't stopped me from procuring them). Oh, it's hard!
Last Sunday a Lexus ran into the rear of my wife's Malibu. There was no apparent damage to the costlier of the two, minor damage to the cheapie, but my wife's weakened spine took a thumping. She continued working until yesterday when, after a few hours, she gave up and checked into the Grossmont ER. Because she has osteoporosis, they kept her long enough to do X-rays and CAT scans, which was also long enough for us both to miss dinner. She was released on her own recognizance moments before midnight. We are thankful there's apparently nothing broken and nothing wrong beyond stress and overwork that should cure itself if she rests.
Our yesterdays betray us. We never see the sucker punches coming, things like learning that scrapings from the inside of my cheeks would reveal when the ancestors of my parents' lines left Africa, 70,000 years ago for my father (R1b1b2a1b (R-P312+)) and 80,000 years ago for my mother (U5b2). Genetic genealogy is a new science being practiced by both amateurs and professionals, with a new jargon of its own to be learned: Haplogroup, Haplotype, SNP (Single Nucleotide Polymorphism), and so on. Who knew? We thought we were on the burning, cutting edge with our Weblogs but the edge has shifted to genetic genealogy and we are once more confused and bewildered in a new jumble of false trails and real. Onward, they say, Ever Onward . . . never knowing where they're bound. Nor that the trip will only take them back to where they started.
well....Well! I remember 'ol Bianca or whever her name was at any given time. She started attacking me and I failed to reason with her and had to have her blocked. Summerssong revealed her lies to me, THANK GOD.
I derive much enjoyment from reading your blogs, James. You are a deep thinker, a Zen man (a high compliment coming from me) and you have a wonderful, complex brain and a heart as big as a Buddy Love can make it....You see beyond the superficialities and are more kind than anyone I know except for my best friend, Zory, who I would ultimately choose to raise my two young children if anything happens to me. I dig you. You are one cool dude.
Already spoken for years and years ago, I value the length and the satisfaction of your marriage and you have become my "poster boy" of marital happiness attainment. 'Tis a pity I cannot seem to find this attainment for myself, but at present I am looking not so diligently.
If I ever make it to CA, you are one person I would ultimately like to buy a cup of tea for but only if you allow my children to "love up" on Buddy while we chat. I don't care about your flaws, your teeth or your motorcycles of the past, I care about you.
Merry Christmas, James. Blessings of the holiday to you and yours!
Winnie
@winniezpoo -
They say love is blind but you couldn't prove it by what you've written. You see many wonderful things in me that are not there. Perhaps you can't attain marital happiness because what you're looking for doesn't exist outside your imagination. I am happily married but it's not what most of the people I know would call happy. It took me years to see the truth of it. What I have is what I want and what most of us do with what we want is lie about it and say we want something else that we don't have. I'm pretty sure my wife isn't happily married, or at least she wouldn't admit it. It would ruin her story.
If you ever make it to California I'd be delighted to have a cup of tea with you. I think the pleasure would be all mine though.
Yes, it is true that I am kind and have a complex brain. It's our kindness that makes us do unkind things to one another and our complex brains that justify that unkindness and all our other internal contradictions.
Thank you for your good wishes and please don't let my kindness hurt your feelings too much.
Merry Christmas to you, the birds, the kitties, Buddy, Connie and everyone in your world! It's been a lot of years now, what a long, strange, wonderful ride it has been!
lol James, funny thing is I thought I looked "sexy" still haven't mastered that obviously. My daughter Tere' said I looked terribly unhappy and you said I should smile. I am asking her to take a new pix tomorrow. It took me how many years to have the guts to put up my pix and it is a sad one at that...geesh...I'm smiling now honestly. lmao...hugs, Sassy
@Sassenach_org -
Sexy huh? Well, I'm sure there are guys who would find that sexy. Do you really want them hanging around? Say no. You should have had Stacy take the picture when you were smiling. Who knows if you'll be smiling tomorrow?
No, I don't hate people like that. I don't hate anyone. It's a complete waste of energy and doesn't solve anything meaningful. Smile, darling. It's all quite funny really.
Many blessings to you. Thank you for blessing my life with your insight. Blessings abound.
Sorry I have not been around too much. I have been sleepwalking awhile now. I just haven't had the energy to wake up.
Congratulations on eight years. I am not sure how many years I have been around, since I have had multiple identities, but I do know that I have enjoyed your presence through most of my identities.
I hope your Christmas was peaceful, and that your New Year is full of what you seek. I have a feeling that it will be, because you seem to seek what you find.
Thank you James for simply being. You manage to eMaze me even now.
And he who ends his post with the most eprops wins. Er, a toaster.
@Timantec_II -
I don't eat toast. Thanks for being eMazed. It's a dying art.
@James - I would imagine it ranks right up there with my propensity to retain useless information which only serves to answer the questions of other players in the odd game of trivial pursiut.
Happy Happiness James.
Thanks for being here after all this time!
@vickyvix -
Yo, Vickster! You're still here too! Love and all that other stuff. J.
Happy Trails James!
I recently passed my fourth anniversary of blogging and while I have found the experience to be wonderful in ways that didn't always seem pleasant at the time, I am still surprised at the novelty of it to many. I find I'm hesitant to mention my blog to people. My kids are secretly proud of it (I know when their feigned complaints "Is this going on the blog?" really mean "I hope this is blogworthy!") and they readily tell their friends to go check it out. And yet, it is not always what they (or I) think it will be...or is...I still struggle with my "format." Sometimes it is simply my journal, a log of what happens in my daily life and often my impressions of those events. Other times, I have tried to make it my soapbox, where I painfully practiced saying what I think (very hard for a "pleaser"). When I found out that I had a "new" sister (three years younger than me, given up for adoption at birth), I was thrilled and tried (too hard) to make her feel welcome. I offered her my blog as a place to start to get to know each other. Sadly, it backfired, and she thought I was some sort of freak for having a blog. That experience left me reeling, and I am happy that the much of the grief and pain I felt over her rejection of me has been replaced by a sort of relief...but I'm still trying to find my stride. When my Mom asked me if I was ready for some "earth shaking news," I had no idea...
I can't tell you how many times I sit down to blog and nothing...absolutely nothing comes out, even when my mind is buzzing and I can hardly wait to sit down at the computer. I still haven't completely figured out how to embrace my blog. I love it, and I can't give it up (I've considered it), not when I realize how much it has meant to those I love and to me as well. I love the friends I've made here, and the world it has opened up. I just can't figure it out, and maybe I need to stop trying.
I was gonna say I'm late to this eLove party, but one can't ever be late for eLove ...
-eLiz ... LOL!
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